Wednesday, December 23, 2009

to wait....

So, I thought it was so fitting that the "word of the day" on my blog today is "to wait"! Ha....I think I'll remember the Russian word for the rest of my LIFE! Ya, I think I know what it's like to wait...just a little!

On a happy friend is on her way to Russia today!!!!! I'm soooo happy that everything worked out for you...she got her visa etc and got on her plane. :-) She will see her little man on Christmas day! YA!!!!! Soo happy for her. What an amazing gift. A gift she will never forget!

On a sad note...another blogger friend lost their referral. Soo very sad. :-( It makes my heart sick for them. It happens so often these makes me scared for us. But, I know we need to keep trusting that God is in control. :-)

Well, this is short...we just got back from a skiing holiday for 5 days and tomorrow we leave for my parents place...a nice 8 hour drive away! :-) It's chilly today, but we hear the roads will be fine.

Have a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone! Sorry I didn't get to send out personal greetings to all my "bloggy" friends....I was so sick for 2 weeks. One week I had the stomache flu and the next week I had STREP throat. Then we packed and headed skiing with Terence's family. Now, we're off to my family and then back for New Year's. It's crazy busy...but soooo fun!

Remember the reason we celebrate this season, the most amazing gift of all...Jesus. God's son, who came to this earth to give us life, eternal life forever with him. We are so thankful for God's love for us. Without him, we could never make it through this adoption process. I feel such peace this Christmas, because I know God is taking care of everything. We can't do anything. His timing is perfect, I keep reminding myself everyday. We may not understand it, but we just need to trust. :-) So, when I light a candle on Christmas Eve, I will remember Jesus....the most amazing gift I have ever received in my life. And, I will think of our daughter. The gift God has given us in our hearts. She's been in our hearts so feels like we know her. I just can't wait to see her sweet little face. And to tell her how much I have longed for her to not just be in our hearts, but in our arms. :-)

Thank you all for being a part of our journey to our daughter. As much as this year hasn't been what we thought it would be. I know we are so much closer to getting a referral than we've ever been. So, it's that hope that I hold on to. Just keep praying for her, and for us.

Thank you!


Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Merry Christmas!

I thought I should do 1 last post before we head off for Christmas holidays. Nothing new. Same old, same old. I hope our holidays will be a good distraction from thinking about our adoption. We are going skiing for 5 days, then 5 day with my family, then we come home for a week...then hopefully we'll be off to a nice beach somewhere. Yes, we decided that we need a break. Terence has worked his butt off this year and so we decided to head south and catch some rays. Since no adoption plans...we're using that week to head to a beach. :-) I'm very happy to be going south...though I'd rather be going to Russia. :-( One day....

Christmas planning has been a struggle this year. I had a nasty stomach flu last week...and this week I have Strep Throat! Nice. So, I have lots to do in the next few days....yikes! Oh well...if it doesn't get done, what can you do? I'm exhausted these days. No energy to make lasagnas or cookies. All I can think about is hanging out and not having to get up at 6:45 everyday! And of course I can't stop thinking about a very warm beach...ahhhhhh. It's been nasty cold. But, the temperature is much better today.

I feel like this post is all over the's my brain. Lack of sleep and no energy to be creative today. Sorry. :-(

I am looking forward to Christmas at my parents! So much fun, lots of eating and playing games. Hopefully we'll be able to take the boys skating. The boys are looking forward to spending time with their cousins too! It will be a much needed break from being stuck at home so much these last few weeks.

I want to wish all of you a Very Merry Christmas! I have great hopes for 2010! As much as I thought 2009 was going to be our wasn't meant to be. God had other plans...and I trust 2010 will be one great year!

We finally got a laptop! So, when we figure it out I'm sure I'll do a post around Christmas with pics...if I'm not too busy sleeping and eating! :-)


Friday, December 4, 2009

9 months and counting!

Nine months. 9 months! How are we doing? hmmmm...good question. As long as I'm reading my bible EVERY day...I'm great. When I don't...I'm not. I really have been drawing from God's strength these days. Our church gave us a challenge, that I decided to take up. We have been challenged to read throught the New Testament by the end of December! Yes, that's a big task...but it's been incredible! And, I've been reading the most encouraging stuff! Paul has been encouraging me through his strength while he was in prison. The attitude is what impressed me most. He was happy, even in his sufferings. In Ephesians 4 :13 is says "So please don't despair because of what they are doing to me here. It is for you that I am suffering, so you should feel honored and encouraged." He's not sulking and sad...he's writing letters to the church of Ephesis (in this case) and encouraging them despite his suffereings in prison! So, how does this apply to my life? Well, I could sit here and sulk and be sad, mad or even angry. OR, I could focus my time on what I could do for others? Especially at this time of year when so many could use our help. We've chosen to help a family this christmas, a single father is in need of food and gifts for his teenage girls. It doesn't take much. As much as I'd love to have our girl home, God calls us to love and care for those around us even while we go through our own "sufferings". So, while I'm doing what God wants me to do here...He's taking care of our little girl over there. So many times we stop caring for others and focus on our own problems. We lose focus on what's really important. I can't change our situation with our adoption process. I have absolutely no control here. So, what I can control is helping someone who needs the bare essencials in life. I can turn 1 families Christmas into a very happy one with hardly any effort at all...and can you imagine how excited those girls are going to be when they open their presents?!!

I hope this Christmas you too will step out and help someone in need. It's not hard. And, there's so much joy in giving!! Isn't that what Christmas is really about? Jesus was born on this earth, to one day die for us...and give us the most amazing gift of all....a life with him in Heaven and a best friend that loves us unconditionally while we are here on earth. In Ephesians 1:5 it says "His unchanging plan has always been to ADOPT us into his own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ. And this gave him great pleasure." The greatest adoption story ever told is this one. That God's desire is to adopt each one of us into his family. He sent his son to die for us, to forgive us our sins, so we could have the greatest opportunity to become apart of God's family if we so choose. :-) So cool! God loved me so much, that he was willing to let his son die on the cross. Talk about suffering! Some days I feel I've suffered enough with this adoption. But, I think of all the things I've learned through these last 3 years and I don't think I'd change a thing. The lessons God has taught me have been life changing really. I am different because of this journey that we've been on. And, I am thankful for all God has taught me. :-)

So, as much as I long for my daughter...I just keep trusting that my heavenly Father has her all taken care of. His love is deeper, greater and stronger than mine will ever be. As much as I would love to be the one holding her...I know God is doing an amazing job taking care of her.

Thank you all for your prayers. We need them to help us get through this with a positive outlook. Some days can be tougher than others. But, we have such hope for the future! God is good. And, because of all of you praying I can hold my head up! :-)


**if you are wondering...there has been no update for us this month. We probably won't hear about anything more until February as Russian Christmas is in January. And, I figure the news will be the same...unless God has a cool little plan brewing in the background that we have no idea about. Keep praying! :-)