Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Summer photos...

This is our "backyard"...only 2 hours from our house. We love every minute we can spend in our beautiful Rocky Mountains.

Only a few years ago this once was a gorgeous green forest. A forest fire went through Marble Canyon. It just recently reopened for hikers. It's still gorgeous though!!!

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the boys at sunset, Drumheller, Alberta

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Thursday, July 23, 2009

nothing new...

The hardest words to hear today were, "don't expect a referral til Spring, realistically". Yes anything can happen, but spring, 2010...that's practically a year away!? I guess I hoped that things would have improved a bit and that maybe, just maybe it wouldn't take over a year for a referral.....what was I thinking?! Getting too hopeful I guess. I think what's hardest on know how sad our boys are right now. It's hard to keep telling them to keep trusting that their sister will come home. Already 2 1/2 years feels like a lifetime...and now, another 18 months before she comes home...or longer? I couldn't even tell them that...cause I couldn't bare to see the sadness in their eyes.

Anyway, enough sad talk...time to go enjoy this hot weather we're having. We're heading off to camp and hope to forget about this for at least the weekend.....

Wish there was more I could say....


Thursday, July 16, 2009

Imagine Adoption....

All around us people are going to Russia, or just getting back, getting good news or moving forward quicker than expected. This is wonderful! Then there are those caught up in the Bankruptcy of "Imagine Adoption" based out of Ontario, Canada. If you haven't heard about it you can google "Imagine Adoption". Though it doesn't affect us or our adoption...we have some close friends that have been affected. And so, our hearts have been really saddened these last few days. Adoption is tough as it is...and then to face so many unknowns with an agency going into bankruptcy. I feel for my friends...and those hundreds of Canadians affected by this. Adoption is NOT a money grabber. Agency aren't out there to make money off us..they are there to help us get our kids home. And, with all the rule changes in the International adoption world...I'm sure this couldn't be good for agencies. Money doesn't flow if referrals are not happening or kids aren't coming home. Families are waiting and agencies are busy trying to get things moving for us as fast as they can. Their costs don't go away. So, I'm sure this isn't the only agency having issues with cash flow. I just pray that things in the adoption world can start moving again. Kids needs homes, families need kids. God has a special place in his heart for orphans. He says in John 14:18 "I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you". Everyone of us is essentially an "orphan" at some point in our lives....when we are without Christ in our life...there's this emptyness and we have this hole in our heart that can only be filled by Him. Until we accept Him into our lives...we are "orphans". But, when we realize life isn't worth living without Christ...God adopts us into His family. It's probably the most incredible adoption story I know! Ultimately God wants to "adopt" all of us into his family. I love that God put the adoption of our girl on our hearts 2 1/2 years ago....cause it made me realize how much more amazing He is and the plan He has for this world to know Him. Knowing God doesn't mean an easy life. In a lot of ways it's a lot tougher. Every time I go through a very difficult time in my life....I've learned to lean more on God. So many times I do fail though...and want to do it all on my own. But, I learn very quickly that, that just can't be done! He patiently waits for me to come to him and ask for help. The month of June was probably my most depressing months in a very long time. Everything in our adoption seemed hopeless. I know I shared on my blog during that time and I know it was bold of me to do that. But, this is real stuff. If you know me...I'm very real. This is who I am. And, during that time. God stood beside me, holding my hand through my frustrations and sadness. He was a friend to me. The more I didn't try to get through it on my own and the more I relied on Christ...the happier I got. God has given me this most amazing peace. Yes, some days I just wish he'd deliver my daughter to me...and my patience lack. But, those are the days that I'm trying to do this adoption on my own, without his peace, patience, and His love. With Him in my life...I can do anything. With out...I crumble. So, I appreciate all those who pray for me, for my family. Because God has brought you into my life so I can have a support behind me, behind us. It's amazing what happens when people pray. Miracles can happen when people pray. So, I thank you all for praying for us. We feel them...especially on the tough days. I have seen friends move leaps and bounds in this adoption process...and I know it's because people pray and God answers their prayers!! We have not given up hope in the least! God is good and God will bring our girl day! So, keep the faith, keep hoping. God will not leave us or forsake us. He is an amazing God and friend that will love me the rest of my life. And, I know he is loving my daughter right now and taking GREAT care of her! She is ultimately in the best hands possible...His. Though, some days I argue with God and say, aren't my hands better?! :-) I know one day he will make all my dreams come true...and bring her home.

So, as much as I wish I had great news for you....I don't. But, I know how much we will all celebrate when we do get the call we've been waiting for, for so long. And that is woth waiting for!


Friday, July 3, 2009

4 Months Waiting...

It has been 4 months today since our documents were sent to Russia. I can't decide if the time has gone fast or slow. In some ways it's gone pretty fast. But, to think that we could potentially have another 14 months to it feels like time is standing still. I hope God has a faster referral than that planned for us...cause I don't know that we could wait another 14 months. Now, that is the longest we'd have to wait...and my feeling is that it will happen sooner than that. But, you just never know with adoption. So much changes so fast! So, we keep on waiting.

I'm glad we have summer to keep my mind off the "wait". So far our busyness has been helping. We just got back from camping with family...and now we're getting ready for a family reunion next week. The big Calgary Stampede is on and we're going to the big Rodeo tomorrow with the boys. We've never been to the Rodeo so the kids are going to love it! It will be a long day...but so fun!

Onto to happier news...our little "big" boy Ryden just turned 5 today!!!!! Wow, hard to believe it's been 5 whole years since he came into our lives. That doesn't seem long ago. I wish adoption waiting went as fast as the last 5 years with our little man. Hard to believe he was 2 1/2 when we started this whole process. Anyway, we had a great day celebrating with our boys.

But, the day wasn't complete without praying once again for their sister. I wasn't sure if the wait would ever affect the boys. They have always been so positive and it didn't faze them...well, until now. Now, they are even starting to doubt if she will ever come home. That made me cry. We prayed last night that we'd ALL keep trusting the God will bring their sister home soon. The wait is long, and it's wearing on all of us. I just hope God has a miracle planned, cause the Jellema's really would like our daughter home by Christmas! Is that too much to ask? I don't think so! So, please join us in praying that God will do a great miracle and bring our girl home...real soon! :-)

Wish I had more exciting things to post. Hopefully soon we will.... :-)