Monday, September 29, 2008

A New Country.....

We are Russia bound! It's hard to believe where we've come over the last year. Sometimes I still feel like I'm holding my breath. Sometimes I feel scared that it won't be our last stab at a country. But, we're willing to risk it all for our girl, for our family. So, here it goes. Next week we update our homestudy and then off it goes. I hope by January we can start preparing our dossier for Russia. It's takes about 3 months to do. They say it may take a little longer to get a referral of a girl...but we're ok with that. All in all we hope that we will have our girl in 2010...maybe early 2010 if we're lucky!

This was a short update. I don't feel very "wordy" right now. Thanks for understanding.

Carala

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Risk

So, I went to an amazing benefit concert on Friday with my mom. It was for Place of Rescue, where Terence and I went in May. Paul Brandt was the main attraction and man was it incredible! With the place maxed out at 350 people...it was an intimate concert with just him and a guitar. WOW! Plus his wife sang a few songs with him as well. He joked, told about his life, and really spoke from his heart. Why I'm telling you about this is because towards the end of the concert he spoke about the song RISK that he wrote. It's also the title of his newest CD. He talked about the risk Marie Ens took (f0under of Place of Rescue) in going back to Cambodia after losing her husband and being of retirement age...and risking all that she had left for the plan God had for her and these beautiful kids that now surround her.

Risking it all....for our kids. I would risk so much for Trennon and Ryden. And, I know we need to risk it all for our third child...wherever they are. We can't hold back...we need to take that leap. And give it all, no matter the outcome. We risked it big time for Taiwan....and it failed. But, that's part of Risk...there's always that chance. But, isn't it worth it, for our kids? YES! Definitely it is! And, if we have to fail once more with another country....it will be worth the risk in the end. The reward is so great. I know in the end we will hold our baby and know it was worth all that RISK! So, thank you Paul Brandt for your words of wisdom (not that he'd ever land on my site...but if he does...thank you! ha!) .

The greatest thing about risk when you have Jesus, is that when you succeed...you have Jesus to thank...and when you fail....you know jesus will pick you up, dust you off, heal your wounds and make you new again! And, he brings your friends along side you, to do the same. So, why don't we risk more, especially for Christ? Well, it still hurts when you fail....cause we are human after all. And we don't like to hurt. But, it's worth it!

Thank you to all our friends and family who are praying. I know it's in those down times, when I don't feel like praying or when I ask why, that my friends are making up for my lack of prayer and faith. You know who you are....thank you! I can feel them. I know God has a great plan for us! I can't wait to see it in action. I know in the end, holding of babe will feel so good. It did with Trennon and Ryden...and I wouldn't have wanted anyone else. So, we wait for our babe....wherever they are. And I trust in God, the one who created me, to do what he will with me. And, if he needs me to wait, I will wait.

To my darling babe,

You are worth the RISK! I love you and can't wait to hold you in my arms for the first time! God is keeping you safe, I know it, I feel it! There are so many that love you already. You are one blessed daughter/son of ours!

Love,
your mama




These are the words to Paul Brandt's song "RISK"


RISK


I'd rather stand on the edge of a cliff

hang my toes over a bit

and then jump when they dare me

even if it scares me

and I get hurt

I'd rather build my wings on the way down

do my best not to fall to the ground

and then laugh at my mistakes

cause they're only lessons I'll learn


I'd rather burn with desire

deep in my soul

and love like a fire that's out of control

and laugh

and dance

and fall

and chance

and kiss

I'd rather live my whole life with a sense of abandon

squeeze every drop out

no matter what happens

and not wonder what I missedI'd rather Risk

Oh I just can't resist the chance to

Risk
Well I guess I could just play it safe

and forget about love hope and faith

with my eye on the shoreline

keeping my boat tied and stayin' home

But I'll never discover new land

by keeping my feet on the sand

No I'd rather set sail

And get carried away by the storm


(Chorus)

Words & Music by Paul Brandt ©2006 Giantfoothillbilly MusicSOCAN

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

This is why we call it "Jellema's Journey".....

So, you can just pretend you didn't read yesterday's blog update....Ecuador is on hold...for an undetermined amount of time. The last time I talked with our agency...it wasn't. So, my call to them this morning (after getting our finger prints and criminal check done!) definitely threw me for a loop. Those of you who have been through this kind of thing before...understand what I'm going through at this very minute.

Do we really have to return to the "drawing board" so to speak and decide on yet another country??? Unfortunately I don't think we have any other choice. All I know, is that God is in control. Wherever he is taking us...I don't know...but I know in the end He holds our little child. Keep us in your prayers as we go through another big decision. We'll keep trusting and holding onto Him, cause there's nothing else we can do. I feel this is all out of our control, as it usually is with God! :-) His plan for us is so much better than the plans we have for ourselves most times. This is why I can keep my head up, though I'm sadden at the moment. I know I just have to trust.



Anyway....that's all for now.

Love,
Carala

Monday, September 8, 2008

paper work, paper work and more paper work...

Hey all!

I know, it's been awhile. Life got so crazy with summer ending and school starting. Trennon is in Grade 1 this year and Ryden is in Preschool! It's nuts. I had 2 hours and 15 minutes to myself this morning! What is one to do? Well....lots! But, the moment I got into my truck to leave preschool....my heart hurt. My boys are all grown up. They don't need mama no longer...boo hoo hoo! I'm happy for time to myself, don't get me wrong. But, it's not as easy as I thought, to let go. I've been home full time for 6 years now. Crazy how time has flown. I'm so thankful our next daughter or son is out there...and needs me! I'll be so happy to have a little one at home again. This is why I'm going to enjoy the time I have for myself in the next few years!

So, tomorrow we are off to get finger printed and get our criminal checks done. I am getting blood work done this week as well. We hope to meet with our social worker on the 30th so we have to get all this stuff back by then. We just need one visit from our social worker to revise our homestudy to get it ready for Ecuador. That is very exciting. We really have hopes that we can send this off to our gov't by end of October and have it back in our agencies hands by Christmas. That would be so wonderful. We'll see though. Nothing ever goes as planned in the adoption world! :-)

Anyway, that is the brief update on us. Thank you all for your support and your prayers. It's been a roller coaster of a ride. We are just excited to get the ball rolling. It was nice to take the summer to prepare ourselves for this next step. Now we are ready to go! I hope the next few years don't take too long.

....Carala (for all my boys!)